Perhaps the holiday has really driven me crazy.

Woah woah im not saying im having too much fun here. Ever since i entered JC, life has indeed changed. In retrospect, i used to be much more motivated to study. But ever since that incident, i seemed to have changed. i TOld myself i must live a better life and grow stronger. I promised her. But now lookat myself..

Diagnostic test on thursday, and im nowhere close to beginning revision. Wad on earth has happened to me? Is it true that the Void in my heart has became even bigger now? A sense of emptiness reigned over me. Some may say that they truely understand how i feel but is that true?

There's something i've always longed to get. And i guess thats de onli cure to my state. BUT my current condition is also the only thing that stops me from getting anything at the first place. Sigh

Well something will work out. I believe. I always do...