everything aside. WE can considered things as a misunderstanding. Being Guys i assume that u can accept and forgive. Probably u'll deem it as nonsensical for me to flare up even at the first place. For that i apologise.

However there's an uncertainty i will have to clearify as far as this friendship is concerned. IF wad u need is a friend who can fill in the gaps, wherever they may be in ur family, love life, studies or simply just be secure. i can tell u i cant never do all that for u. I too have gaps in my family, love life, studies and even hopes to stay secure. Im not in aniway luckier or am i worst off compared to you. Wad u have i dun. and vice versa.

I'll be truthful in wadeva i feel for u now.

Eva since you stepped into this college wad i tot you were was but a distant vestige. You, with a goal and an end in mind is no more. That, the probable reason why u may feel so insecure over everything in ur life. To me u are aimlessly floating in this mere facade you call GUANSHENG, in a seemingly neverending sea called life. Wad you say or do is nothing else but a fultile attempt to show that you are still alive. You are wasting your life. wad u need to end all the insecurities is not friends. Companion will come to an end in time to come. I know that better den anyone of u. I truely do. i've alreadi lost someone i loved and truely deared. I dun wan to lose anione else more. It pains me more den anithing else to see a fren lagging behind wad we all painfully try to pull through ---LIFE. I hate to see friendships end simply BECOS whoeva cant be with u all the time or whoeva cant hit town with u. Friends are more than this. Its more den BGR i will say.

ITs time for you to re-establish the reasons why u are living in this world. If u see a reason to do something and that include studying. You'll by all means do it and do it well. Since u have no other choice other den to study. WHY NOT INDUCE SOMETHING TO MAKE U STUDY? I CAN DO IT WHY CANT U? i truely wan to step into ur life to see if its really TAT hard to live. u shld come live mine. see if its any easier

sigh. i hope this heart to heart revelation will mean us good.