I heeded the words of the ancient prophecies. Abiding it lawfully word by word, i was kept silent, forced to consume my own emotions lyk a turtle in its shell. Days passes by and change, yet life stood frozen on the spot, unable to cry out, every moment as tho it was for eternity.

For a instance time seems to have came to a halt. For that the truth behind these prophecies i held on to for so many years turned out to be mere fallacies. Heart broken i was. Petrified i was. Yet i had to remain seemingly unaffected. Its hard to put up a good act.

I am totally speechless.

The Genuine truths behind the truths i should call that. For i, once again became the fool of this entire setting.

oh yA.. wnS..

IF only i can snap my fingers and the entire earth goes BORMM.. burst into flames.. wudnt tat be good.

COol huh.. watched too much alchemist. "Combining air and sparks together, given the coordinates i can create an explosion out of thin air." whoo.. how come this looks so much lyk ShuDa's DarkBring.. ahha.

YawNS i dun wanna run animore. i feel SO bored just by running. And its giving me lots of problems. u can just chop off my legs and i can join some slack club lyk the malay cultural society. Since our skool's gonna become a malay school aniway. I guess its good tat i shld know more abt their culture. I wonder how my skool will look lyk when the entire freshmen cohort is made up of u know.. Malays.. will there be a culture, mental and communication gap between me and my future junoirs?? I cant wait for skool reopen to come.. This will get interesting wahhaa

-Disclaimer: THis is just a v random posting. If u dun understand, it suggests 1 thing, im too random for u. If u feel that the contents consisted of racist remarks.. U ARE WRONG.

This time.. time came to a halt for me.

I looked at into de overcasted sky. As all movement arnd me came to a total standstill. There's one thing im sure this time. This will be a storm i will never pull thru. Perhaps...

There's a chinese saying that goes, IF you dun cast wad is old away, u will never get newer things in return. How true is this? The old may not necessary be bad and stale all the time u see. In that case, how possible is it for me to cast wad i;ve longed to have for such a long time???

There seems as tho there'll many collectors out there who really loved old antiques. However only 1 managed to get hold of this antique everyone had been longing to have.

Sadly.... I wasnt the one....


I tried telling myself to give up, yet i couldnt bring myself to do it. I hope the owner can cheerish wad he has now.

The World came to a halt. The clock came to a total stand still in the early mornings of Nov 13 2005. With the tragic news spreading around the entire wrestling community, thousands mourned for the death of WWE wrestler Eddie Guerrero, aged 38. The wrestling superstar was found dead in his hotel room in Mineapolis with a toothbrush by his side. Beliefs were that he died after suffering a heart attack.

Named as one of the best wrestlers of his generation, Eddie is one of the best artists of the craft of history i believed. Leaving his amazing career behind, Eddie left his fans, me inclusive(tho im not his fans) into deep depression, truely i was left in a state of shock.

I watched a few of his wrestling clips and i had this sudden sense of nostalgia. As if i really hoped to see this guy wrestle again. I guess thats wad i mean by takign things for granting. I used to switch of the TV or tune into the other channels wheneva this great legend wrestled in the past.

I mourn deeply for the death of Eddie and i hoped that he will rest in peace.

This news impaled my heart. i wonder why. I couldnt expalin this. but im kinda sad. Perhaps im forced to face the fact that sometimes things lyk such can happen. Just in a single instance when no 1 was noticing. Fellow wrestlers were still talkin to him when they alighted from the plane. And later the next day, he was alreadi found dead. The adversities of life i guess.. i feel so sad....

wah. this is the first time i got so many bday wishes. Bday onli ma. no big deal.

Yawns. after many sessions of wichi failed to complete my trainin decently... i managed to sweep today's 13k run with NO sweat at all. i wondered wad really happened during those days.

Aniways. tanks every1 who wished me a good bday.

I really tot u're not wishing me.. lOL wahha.. think history sometimes will tend not to repeat itself. Its goona be a good day.

wad a lifeless day....

I slpt and slpt and slpt. I slpt as tho i've forgotten abt my own existance. cant remember anithing significant at all.

Warcraft was the same as ani other day. 5 workers from the start till u get tonnes of units in the end. I played. Won mostly.

Now im in such a daze. I guess i really slept too much today. Mind is in such a mess. So many things circulating in it as tho they're gonna burst of out my head to say HI in ani moment.

My house is quiet as usual. With my dad out, 2nd and 3rd sis out, Im pretty much left muted in my room. waha as tho i'll have anithing to say if they were here. All i can hear is my own speakers blasting those music i've listened eva since i was a kid. I wonder when i'll get sick of it. Just communication.. Rhythm Emotion... White Reflection... wahaa.

To Sum everything UP. IM BORED. no worthy shows to watch, no entertaining things to do. No purpose to ask ani frens out. Yawns.Perhaps i shld begin studying i guess.. wahaa...

The lyrics of this song perfectly descibes my mood now. How sweet..

Im contented. Its such a wonderful and well-lived day.

Tanks juliana and aaron for coming up with such an superb idea. I owe u guys 1 for coming up with a grp blog. Afterall, we're buddies!

Managed to see her finally , after allowing my feelings to hide in myself for so long. I broke down, in the end. Yet i know i'll be back up strong once again.

"i cried, perhaps i really couldnt accept it yet"

I feared and trembled as i walked towards her. A strange kind of feeling confronted me as i advanced forward. A sense of denial i guess....

She's living so happily in my dreams such tat i almost mistaken it for reality. i wonder wad i shld do.

As i wondered is that the book ive been looking for eva since the beginning?

I guess i tried too hard trying to grasp reality from my dreams...