Happened to chance upon this question this afternoon "Have you ever been in love"
I was lyk wtf.. i cant remember..

I guess i could have considered falling in love as a past time.. Something tat once existed. Well i have better things to do now rather den to have silly crushes on ppl i dun even know or stay in love for 10239 yrs for the same girl.. i sound so deprived...

aniways im so hooked up with my tots recently... Im lyk trying to devise new ways to hit my 2min target. But somehow the thing tat seems to be holding me back is.. MR WONG wahhaa.. must try to talk him out of training me.. But come to think abt it.. he's the best we have :X

WHAHA PARIS TMR. ive been looking forward to it eva since the start of april. FINALLY THE CHANCE TO FEAST IS HERE!!!! ahh raw oysters.. succulent beef... ahha mouth watering sashimi... wtf i cant wait for it to come. Im gonna go without breakfast ahahaa.. go there clear table

oh btw.i can forget abt buying Trinity blood.. why? dl la easier ahahaa. im alreadi down with 5episodes.. damn cool.. a must catch anime. however it may seem too grotesque and.. voilent forsome.. But of cos if you too childish for it DUn watch. u wun understand it aniway

Zzzz wanted to go over to amk lib this morning.. Well ostensive motive was to get my new book.. den sun bian go lib study u see.. Such a loser.. i had to fall back on tireness and loneliness as excuse for not going. BOo..

Die sial Run abit hamstring tia until as tho it's gonna get pulled animoment. im having problems walking and i cant straighten my leg.. Gosh.. Sprinting is really injury prone. Sorry TJ for laughing at you wheneva u complain abt hamstring aches.

Haa.. and so i stayed at home. Finally completely Tut 34.. and WARCRAFT3 EXPANSION whahaa. can u believe it. its such an old game but i still managed to pull thru the entire campaign.

i must say tat im lyk a warcraf freak alreadi. i wonder who can beat me in the knowledge of the world of warcraft... Every detail in the timeline. every minute event tat took place in the world i know dem all.. waHHAaa. I really hope blizzard can come up with warcraft 4 - Attack of the monstars or smth...

well talk abt warcraft. Some may say that the game has alreadi reached its peak of development. But i must say, i'll be able to give the developers some good suggestions. Tho they may cuase the game to become rather... Complicated.

The hero system. Dey can include several spells to be choosen whenever each individual hero is trained. In tat way we can see much more animation on the battle map rather den be confined to the 4 old skills that everyone will use. BORING. Den perhaps for items Heros can do things lyk to combine recipes.. just lyk those in DOTA... Individual Units shld have more individual skills. and dey shld be given the choice for weapon too. Lyk a footman can choose a axe instead of a sword. den the different weapons will give a different spice to the battles too.. COOL HUH..

but my suggestions are probably a fluke. The motive of the game is for players to have it short, at the same time enjoy. Who's gonna play with players lyk MONG who lags everytime he tries to make a decision lyk which skill to click, wad weapon to use. lOL.. a 15min game may jolly well end up in a 15hr death match in which the person who can stay awake throughout wins.. not by strategy or micromanagement...

Aniway.. i strongely dun think Blizzard's gonna end the WArcraft production with a skimpy "world of warcraft". I must admit the game is real cool.. BUt one can really get sick of the game thanks to all the balancing dat made the different classes similar, confined with a small pool of SPellwork and skills to choose from.

Other den that, the story isnt completed. The Lastest Expansion ended off with arthas seating on the frozen throne. HEy wudnt his ass freeze if he were to sit on it for too long??? There must be something that will happen later right?? wad abt the civil war between the 2 grp of scourge?? KelThuzard and Sylvannas are still battling out in Lorderaon u know??? Den wadabt Thrall and Jaina? u're sure dey dun have a problem rallying wad remains of the Horde and Alliance??? Wad abt The NightElves?? Are u shld dey are living their immortal lifes with each passing moment without a single thing to do??? AND there's more. Illidan was slashed by arthas at the final battle, but is he dead? So if he is, will Kael with his higelves and Vashj with her Nagas avenge for him??? Not forgetting the Final Demon lord who still lives in the twisting nether.. Kiljaeden, are u shld he's gonna sit by his sofa and watch tv? And forget abt all that has happened in the world of azeroth?? oh gawd..

DEY HAVE TO EXPAND THE GAME FURTHER.. Of cos i hope tat happens before my time has passed... Their production takes ages.. Ahhh "STARCRAFT:GHOST coming ur way summer 2004". COM"N its alreadi 2006 where is the GAME???

Guys let me share with u a studying tip.

WHen u get sick of doing econs essay outlines, switch to something else to take a break. That may be lyk doing Physics AC tut or Math 33b, if not the pj math specimen paper.

Den once u get sick of doing either of the mentioned, switch to reading the lecture notes. Otherwise u can try taking a breather by attempting to solve something u have never learnt. lyk a random NUCLEAR physics qn from the TYS. NOT ENUF? u can take out the nearest malay dictionary and start trying to memorise good malay terms.... dun be shock, i do have a malay dictionary.

WAHHAA TRAINING TOMORROW. WHOOOOO go look for my spikes liao.. whoooTt. time to throw my shouri and all my racers away...

After much consideration and tot. i guess i didnt waste my time for that trip down to GomBak stadium afterall.. haha if not it wud have been totally senseless.. to travel for such a far distance just to catch a 12sec race..

Saw how various runners ran did for the 1500m race. I guess im not tat nonchalent to running related stuffs yet hmm.. i really felt lyk joining dem tho i may be positioned way at the back. Sometimes i really think that im such a simple person. It just take tat 1 very race that spurred me back to life again.

I want to run..

Not just tat, Ms lee managed to cleared some doubts tat i had in myself. She's such a nice person to talk to. At least she has promised to pass me training schedules if i really were to train without a coach again... ha top 8 here i come

Good bye cross country. Welcome TRACK!! Sprint sprint sprint..

btw TJ this is our last chance to prove that we are fast hehe.. Make sure u scrap off that 0.2sec from ur PB.. i have... 8secs to scrap.. WHooO. 800 here i come

everything aside. WE can considered things as a misunderstanding. Being Guys i assume that u can accept and forgive. Probably u'll deem it as nonsensical for me to flare up even at the first place. For that i apologise.

However there's an uncertainty i will have to clearify as far as this friendship is concerned. IF wad u need is a friend who can fill in the gaps, wherever they may be in ur family, love life, studies or simply just be secure. i can tell u i cant never do all that for u. I too have gaps in my family, love life, studies and even hopes to stay secure. Im not in aniway luckier or am i worst off compared to you. Wad u have i dun. and vice versa.

I'll be truthful in wadeva i feel for u now.

Eva since you stepped into this college wad i tot you were was but a distant vestige. You, with a goal and an end in mind is no more. That, the probable reason why u may feel so insecure over everything in ur life. To me u are aimlessly floating in this mere facade you call GUANSHENG, in a seemingly neverending sea called life. Wad you say or do is nothing else but a fultile attempt to show that you are still alive. You are wasting your life. wad u need to end all the insecurities is not friends. Companion will come to an end in time to come. I know that better den anyone of u. I truely do. i've alreadi lost someone i loved and truely deared. I dun wan to lose anione else more. It pains me more den anithing else to see a fren lagging behind wad we all painfully try to pull through ---LIFE. I hate to see friendships end simply BECOS whoeva cant be with u all the time or whoeva cant hit town with u. Friends are more than this. Its more den BGR i will say.

ITs time for you to re-establish the reasons why u are living in this world. If u see a reason to do something and that include studying. You'll by all means do it and do it well. Since u have no other choice other den to study. WHY NOT INDUCE SOMETHING TO MAKE U STUDY? I CAN DO IT WHY CANT U? i truely wan to step into ur life to see if its really TAT hard to live. u shld come live mine. see if its any easier

sigh. i hope this heart to heart revelation will mean us good.

I sincerely hope that u will read this Guansheng.

I am pissed off at you. YES and u know it. Btw u have alreadi proven my guess correct by admitting it in ur blunder msg.

WHY AM I PISSED??
I am disturbed and pissed by wadeva u said by having sex with a malay girl and tat didnt sound lyk a joke to me. Yes i tried to shut u off by talkin alot. And i realised thats the only effective way to do so.

AND YES. u may be annoyed. IM SORRY. BUT u could have told me to stop. BUT DID U? u DIDNT. AND BY DOING SO u successfully BROKE my tolerence lv. FIRST IN HISTORY SOMEONE HAS DONE IT TO ME. BY BLOWING CONTINUOUSLY AT MY FACE. To anione else who may have chanced upon this posting, imagine some hooligan who stand a head taller den u, continuously blowing mouth stinking breathe right in ur face. HOW RUDE HOW DISGUSTING. Normal people would have alreadi got so pissed if it was the fan. AND GUESS WAD, I TOLERATED TAT SHIT all the way from admiralty till Khatib. IMAGINE THE HIGH LV OF TOLERANCE I SHOWED for his ever-ly persistance to piss me off. I TOLD U TO STOP BLOWING and i even commented tat u need to grow up. BUT DID U?

I've told u this just 30mins ago RIGHT in ur face and im gonna say it again. U need to know when to stop. PLEASE. if u are perverted yes u can show it off as a joke. NOT THE KIND U CRACK. I CAN NEVER ACCEPT THAT. if u are unhappy u can ask others how they feel abt ur sense of perversion. KNOW THE LIMITS PLEASE. i'll probably be the only truthful friend to tell u this. BECAUSE OTHERS WILL SIMPLY LEAVE U TO DIE.

Disclaimer:i admit that im not perfect and i do have my flaws which if u want, can to shoot it right in my face. AND IM HAPPY ABT IT. YET. i show no regret in wadeva i've said and U DESERVE everysingle word of my reprimand.

BTW i bet the scene on the train looked and sound so stupid to those present as well to those who reads my blog. I CANT help but feel STUPID and SHAMELESS. IM SORRY GUYS FOR BEING SUCH A LOSER. But u know.. birds of the same kind flock together.......

Save me
All** I need you please
Save me now
I don't believe you want to leave me alone
'Cos All** I can't survive
you got to keep me alive
So All** save me
I need your love
To keep my faith and be strong
Now we can try again to get along'
Cos All** I can't survive
please All** save me

extracted from Save me -Leslie Parrish; SuperEuroBeat

aH i Hope no one's gonna read this.

Strangely i feel as tho im lyk compiling tonnes of mistakes and failures year by year.. Each event getting worst and worst. Perhaps in future if someone were 2 ask me for my hobby, i can proudly tell him that it's to fail.

Whaahaa.. wads wrong with me. Things will always get cocked-up on the day im supposed to do my best. Sometimes i really wonder if there's really a parallel world where all things in that place will happen exactly the opposite of how it has turned out in our world....

I guess i must have been a extremely successful person over there.

Sigh oh well.. ITS FINALLY OVER all i can say. Such a personal disappointment. Such a personal failure.

And i tell u yes im depressed till such an extend i think i can never forgive myself.

Wad a loser.. must be my father's fault.. let me inherit such a lousy bloodline....

WAHAHa im actually insulting my entire pedigree.

Or perhaps it's my blasphemy to god that had cause such events to all retribute on me..