Alright. The time is 3.01am and i have arnd 3 more hrs to study b4 heading to school.
after days of practice. i've finally mastered the art of staying awake. Just think of the demanding activities im gonna do tmr makes me excited. Tennis... Intensive lessons and remedials... im really enjoying live now.
Got a chance to talk to one of my frens recently.. lost contact evasince i graduated from the boys home. oh i mean cat high. He got retained and stuffs.. now serving his imprisonment in an ITE. ahh im not trying to mock at him or anithing, im no better infact. Its just the name of the "prison" tat differs aniway.
Ah life changed so much for him. Well for me too. After all the yrs of seperation, all the disastrous events i knew he has gone thru, yet his pride is still strong.. AHaa.. still the usual "BIG CANNON" in chinese u will say. DA1 PAO4. kinda happy for him for remaining tat way despite all the vicissitudes in his life (tho i used to get rather pissed with tat character of his). Oh well he even invited me out for a drink tmr. ahha but im still underaged.. i wonder..
Tat brings me to my pt, i've realised tat many of us.. ya infact i feel all tat are in my class(esp some), school(mostly) are still living in their protected little world. We never knew how malignant the boat of life can steer to at a single instance. serious. Im not saying its an obligation for one to be able to turn prophetic overnight, but things in our life are simply too smooth sailing, comparatively. All the things tat might have happened. Its either ur parents divorce, u getting bad PW grades, fren's dumped u cos she dun lyk ur hair and the other usual blah blah tat u can hear ur frens complain about. And tey opening declare that these are the worst and they wanna end their own life cos life simply sucks. Trivial i will say
Wad many dun realise is how feeble things arnd u can be. U maybe talkin to ur fren and the next moment a car may run him over. Ya tats wad im talkin abt. Trapped.. or shld i say willingly encaged in our innocence, we never considered our every action, movement or even breath, how the next could have been so different from the previous. Words and Actions are so easily produced yet of little considerations. U may know tat the friendship u have with somebody maybe close yet not close enuf or rather recently been affected due to his change in hairstyle, and so ya its okay to DUN GIVE A damn abt him for tat period(so long he kips tat hairdo). And if he dies after the next step he takes, you're gonna regret for not treating him better.
Food for thought.. for myself (btw there are exceptions, i dun give a damn for u even if u die now. well ofcoc tat wun be the case if u are still considered relevant in my life). Think abt the things u have done up to today. Is there a way u can treat everyone a little nicer? Will u regret not doing so if that somebody passes on the next moment?
If she passes away now. It'll be a regret of my life. Unfortunately i dun have the courage to say sorry. How i hope wad u said b4 could remain true ; frens forever.
