The unlykly confindant...

Its strange that a person can actually share so much with ppl u dun really know well... Yet still manage to leave some FOOD for ThoughT... well it really Left me pondering again.

Wahaha i;ve gotten it alreadi.. felt so much better now.. was still wondering if i was gonna pull thru yesterday.. didnt know i can put things down so easily wahahaa..

Jealousy, Greed, Anger, Sadness. When these feelings combine.. we have TMB...

How i longed to have fangs now so i can literally suck life out of anione who stood in my path..

i wonder will will happen when Promos is over.

If only life is alchemy.....

Sometime i really wonder if im made of brute or smth.... Was trying hard to repair my Bikey... when i literally Broke this metallic piece of "screw on" thingy with my bare hands. Now my front gear's dEAD. Intially it wasnt as bad but now iTS DEAD!!

Henyway. It gave me a sudden rage to chiong to the nearest bike shop to buy some spare parts. On my own i hoped to fine tune wadeva flaws there are in my cheapo bike.

Perhaps i shld add in a turbo charger and a tank of nitrous...

Skool again tmr. Its lyk a start of a brand new life..

I've just realised my parents almost aborted me when i was found to exist. Guess i better live a fuller life from now on..

Dedicated to my BBBBBF

Happy bday to u.
Had a great time this morning chatting and having lunch together.
One more step into the new Era.
The air u breath is adorned beautifully with this occasion.
In the 17th year of ur existence shall it bring more colours to not just ur own, but all our lives.

Time flies.. It's alreadi 1week since i casted u aside.

My saturday looked exactly the same as the previous one. Studied, ith the same person. Yet i was happy to be able to. Its hard to get such an opportunity. We're supposed to be close, but there seems to be a vast distance between the both of us whenever we're tgt. Thats strange.

I wonder how she feels.

Something's happening to me. I got v agitated yesterday during PE. I wonder why. I looked at the lack of coordination in my fresbie team. I looked at the way my team played. I got damn pissed. Although i was fully aware that i wasnt much of a superb player too. But.. this is different. The usual me.. will take it lightly.. Com;n its just a game.. who caress whu wins or loses. Yet, i wanted to thrash the hell out of every1 yesterday, yet i was unable to. I was disappointed. I wonder wad sparked me off for that.

Stressed? how could it be. Andrew used to say that i misjudged my own abilities. Perhaps im really such a person.. apart from the things i used to joke in class, abt how good i am and how i could have thrashed my various subject teachers. I felt i;ve existed to PERFECT things, yet im always not performing. Is it true that i sucked or am i really underperforming?

MAnaged to Score so many pts WooOT. mB u rawked

Went to have intensive studying session with Jul yesterday.. which lasted all the way until today.. woot.. rushed back home in the middle of a downpour... Feeling so good now.. woot.

So much for puking all the time after my 800m race.. thanks ah mR wong.

Did 2.12min a day ago for my 800m skool sports heats. Wasnt a commendable timing tho. BUt i guess its better den nothing.

Well managed to break The Skool's record for 400m today. clocked 56.06sec. Sounded so pro huh.. com'n la previous record was the first ever record set in innova history, sommore i was the one whu started the record.. Chay.
But was kinda happy when i did 56.06. tho tats still quite far from my PB. Perhaps it was tat i reached my Goal so yea..

And again.. 56.06 is nothing in national standard. So is 2.12....

Went in our skool's Mid authum fest celebrations. Come to think abt it. My granny passed away 7 yrs ago during Mid authum fest. Had fun watching those performances.

Somehow i feel that im startin to know a person from my class better. The person seems pretty different frm wad we think by impression.. interesting...

Oh btw Congrats to GS, keynes, WS and MY. u all rocked in the run today.

Apologies Guys for being Super mean today. wAHaa.. Esp to JU. Tho i wasnt with u i guess u did a pretty good throw today! just tat it wasnt me to verbalise something lyk tat. So... haix.. i mocked at u instead.

Well Was a total sinner today. DID something super wrong. Apologies to GS.

Apologies and apologies.. sometimes i really feel so high tat im literally enjoying myslef at the expense of other's pride and esteem. I wonder how people felt when i treated dem that way... Some were laughing while others kept quiet. Wonder how they felt inside.

Perhaps i shld have STFU..

I've ran 21k!!!!
Say That Again???
ITS 21k folks

GOsh this may make veteran and elite runners laugh but i managed to finish my v first 21k today in the shear's bridge run, clocking.. better not tell. Just note tat i lost to Ms Enya GoH, Tommie Chen, Lots more. BTW MS GOH is damn fast. De moment she started running she disappeared infront of my eyes

Guess my Body isnt fit enuf to challenge that distance yet(after eating and slacking throughout the entire holiday) Legs cramped at the... FINAL 100m(damnit) literally brought me down to my knees just to message my calf. And when i cant get it fixed, i limped to the finishing line. HERO ah..

Oh yea.. i'll be doing Full marathon in the year end.. i wonder how possible tat may be..

Continued~

Smart Mb Runs to the nearest poh kim happily after knowing that he doesnt have to go all the way down to the branch in PS. Finally he gets to exchange his VCds for a set of good 1s... HE THOUGHT.but who knows, god loves to play pranks on little MB. MB soon realises that there is NOTHING wrong with the VCD and its his own blunder... waahahhahaa congrats.. -throws confetti

When 16yr old Ming Bang Opened his new Anime Box, he delicately places the VCd into his VCD Player. Anticipating the very first episode he has Longed to watch a year ago. Unfortunately the disc was found to have some defects and it is not playable.

Just a small little anology to illustrate my SWAYness.. its BULL SHIT!!! why will this happen? Stupid animation i've been longing to watch. NOw i've finally gotten it and this has to happen. LYK COM'n! there's so many boxes out there, how in the blue hell did i manage to grab the one that is spoilt... omG

Wad to do? i shld have grown used to my usual Swayness.. well den.. looks lyk i've to go all the way back to PS to get the stupid vcDs changed... alone sommore.. kns...

Not the Usual "Reason" from hoobastank but "REASON" by Takami Nami who, certainly is as young as we are. Featured in Gundam Seed DEstiny's First Ending Theme.

Nice Song indeed...

Woah.. imagine the Big bucks rolling into her bank account at the age of 17... If onli i have so much money i'll
1st: Share The money with my famliy
2nd: Buy myself a RX-8
3rd: Treat my friends to a sumptuous meal.

But there's something money cant buy (wadeva shitty bank card that says this) wahha..
LOVE(true indeed), WIts(something u cant get unless u are me)... Youth(to a certain extent u can.. just dun make urself look lyk michael jackson)

Idolised? Or is it Love?

The Voice of 1 wins over a million

The Sight of 1 sends ur thoughts running(to wad degree thats for u to judge) and hearts beating.

The Touch of 1 is more delicate den even the most precious stones

The Thought of 1 made you miss him/her even more

Standing face to face with 1, is lyk a thousand miles apart.

So much to say but uncertain of where to start.

Mesmerised by the way he/she looked at you, u stayed spellbinded and speechless.

Wad is this?

If i knew i wudnt have asked..

Is it really a waste of time to hold on to the dreams and hopes that do not belong to u? ANd also is it true that it is destined that u will never get somethings even tho u longed to have dem?

Strangely my the things that happened arnd me has made me come to realise how much i actually have.. and wad i actually dun. As for the things i have, i tried my best to throw dem away. Yet as for those tat i dun not poccess, i dream of owning it. Ironic huh. Perhaps it;s just "normal" to take things for granted.

Feeling as empty as before, now i doubt wad can ever cure me. Maybe i shld just get myself busy over many things. So i wun have the time to think of such crap. wahha.. woah. Perhaps im really having too much time slacking.. shld get to work soon..

How i hoped Life can be lyk a deal where u know.. The LAW OF EQUIVILANT EXCHANGE holds.. But its hard to deny that sacrifices can be made with nothing to get in return. oh well.. thats de world we live in~

Perhaps the holiday has really driven me crazy.

Woah woah im not saying im having too much fun here. Ever since i entered JC, life has indeed changed. In retrospect, i used to be much more motivated to study. But ever since that incident, i seemed to have changed. i TOld myself i must live a better life and grow stronger. I promised her. But now lookat myself..

Diagnostic test on thursday, and im nowhere close to beginning revision. Wad on earth has happened to me? Is it true that the Void in my heart has became even bigger now? A sense of emptiness reigned over me. Some may say that they truely understand how i feel but is that true?

There's something i've always longed to get. And i guess thats de onli cure to my state. BUT my current condition is also the only thing that stops me from getting anything at the first place. Sigh

Well something will work out. I believe. I always do...

Petrified as i looked at her picture now. Even as i browsed thru my friendster pages.. i tried hard to miss her account. Perhaps im just living in a state of self-denial. How i missed those days when she's still arnd.

Is it just me? Days seemed to fly by lyk a speeding bullet. So fast that even i couldnt remember living through those days. Now as the third quater of the year comes to a close, i embrace myself, for the brink of destruction. How i wished life is so innocent.

Live is full of crap. Tho the law of Equivalent Exchange seemed so real, yet the world have once again proved it wrong. How i wished i had someone beside me to hold my tears. I really regret being the way i had been.

No one in this world really deserve to be treated nicely, maybe perhaps for some, my family especially. Some say that it was god who had created us. Hence dey shld devote their lives to him. The onli thing i knew was that I was created by my family and no one deserved to be treated better den them.

How i hope life is forever as comfortable as it is at home.

Strangely many things had happened. Why is that so? is it really true that life is lyk a stage where everything is so superficial? Is it true that some things are destined to happen? And what do they imply?

How i hoped im just an island.. So i wun know how it feels to be lonely. and the need to be responsible for others...

Shld i close myself in.. or shld i remain the way i am?

who am i.. wad am i?

I really admire Siddhartha Guatama, i wonder how he attained enlightenment..